In the beginning I build a wall, it’s been so long now I can’t seem to remember if I was hiding myself in or keeping the word out. Most people would hate the idea and would want to escape, but I did not. Behind that wall I could be anything I wanted, i could be someone new, someone great, I could be my true self. But the truth is eventually the world comes knocking and the wall begins to crumble. You try to forget and stay behind that crumbling wall. But the wall does not hold. Now you are wide open to the world, vulnerable, scared, you try to forget and begin to run. But the problem is you can’t forget forever, and you run out of places to hide. And life eventually catches us all.
He seemed unstoppable, always escaping from dyer situations. He was a brilliant fool, truly a brilliant fool. and then he met her. She could do no wrong in his eyes. For her he would do anything. He would kill a man, he could kill a thousand men, and then another. He would burn down the world just to be by her side. He loved her, he truly loved her. But the truth was she did not share the same feelings. To her he was but safety and nothing else, she was using him. But he could not see that. To him she was perfect, an angel. He truly was a brilliant fool. He though with her by his side he was perfect but it was quite the opposite because she was headed to the grave and she was talking him with her.
” As surely as night follows day. There comes a time that even gods most die”
There are many things given to us in this life for the wrong reasons, what we do with such blessings, that is the true test of a man. Gannicus
There was no need to cry anymore. Because the sun had risen and a new day had come. I waited for so long for a miracle to come. And there you ware. With you I had it all. Were it was dark now there was light, pain become joy. All of my weakness become my strengths. Even though you end up leaving me. I know you will return. To give me yet another new day.
I just can’t understand why despair follows me everywhere I go. I miss being able to look out into the world and just smile. Did I pick too early. Was I just a one trick pony. Or was I just delusional in thinking that I could ever be something in life. Maybe God has finally abandoned me. Or maybe he was never on my side to being with. I am confused, alone, afraid. I feel betrayed by life.
He always wanted to be by her side. Not being able to see her anymore. Would destroy him. He did not want that. To him she was everything. That’s why, He will never leave her. He was determined to be with her no matter what happened. Because to him, The greatest accomplishment in his life was meeting her.