In the beginning I build a wall, it’s been so long now I can’t seem to remember if I was hiding myself in or keeping the word out. Most people would hate the idea and would want to escape, but I did not. Behind that wall I could be anything I wanted, i could be someone new, someone great, I could be my true self. But the truth is eventually the world comes knocking and the wall begins to crumble. You try to forget and stay behind that crumbling wall. But the wall does not hold. Now you are wide open to the world, vulnerable, scared, you try to forget and begin to run. But the problem is you can’t forget forever, and you run out of places to hide. And life eventually catches us all.
As my world crumbles and My heart continue to beats fast I begin to realize how much time has passed by and all the promises I made. Was I brave, did I really love you. Or was I afraid. At that moment I felt like I died for a thousand years. Because all I did was watch you stand alone.
He seemed unstoppable, always escaping from dyer situations. He was a brilliant fool, truly a brilliant fool. and then he met her. She could do no wrong in his eyes. For her he would do anything. He would kill a man, he could kill a thousand men, and then another. He would burn down the world just to be by her side. He loved her, he truly loved her. But the truth was she did not share the same feelings. To her he was but safety and nothing else, she was using him. But he could not see that. To him she was perfect, an angel. He truly was a brilliant fool. He though with her by his side he was perfect but it was quite the opposite because she was headed to the grave and she was talking him with her.
I remember how I use to stair at her and thought of how perfect she was. And as I stood there brooding on the old unknown world. All that was running through my mind was that it most have been an incorruptible dream. Because it was perfect, she was perfect, and I wished that I could have stayed in the moment forever.
[ Blind Side ]
Her life was never so lucky. And time was just passing her by as she tries to play catch up. One of the hardest things for her to confront was realizing that she might never be what she thought she would be, or be with the man she loved so much. She knew she could not cheat what was coming. As she takes her last breath, she was sorry for all the things she had said and did, things she did all her life and failed to fix. And in those moments she confronted her self for the first time. As her mind wonders, all that was left was to face the hard truth.
Words Of A Dying Dream
Suffering and hopelessness of a vast array of cronic illnesses because putting an end to it all would hurt those you care about is unfair to those that would rather leave this world behind. When life becomes a battle to survive for the financial benefit of your family, your faced with a fate worse than death. Oh how I pray my incurable list of rare disorders were fatal versus a lifetime of hell, at least then i could leave without guilt of it being my fault. As you are drawn back to reality. I personally like others, we don’t talk about our plans to end it all, we just do. At least those like myself who’ve been serious about it or once thought of it. I don’t recommend this permanent cure to a temporary problem, but a persistent and never ending one that’s incurable should be allowed and assisted. existing in such a world with constant pain, torture, and hell from what our existence has become. They should do this without the self motivated factors to guilt us into living. I now await a natural death or accident that liberates me from a life worse than death.
As I stirred in to your deep blue eyes all Time could do was stand still. And share the moment and the beauty she is. At that moment all my dout was gone. Because now I will be brave. I would not let anything take away what was standing in front of me. Every breath, hour, and tears has finally brought me to this moment. Because You had died everyday waiting for me and I had died a thousand years searching for you.